There are days when I couldn't be more excited about where life has taken me and what I am doing.
And there are days when this walk I am on right now is the hardest thing I have EVER DONE! Days when it is lonely, and frustrating, and OVERWHELMING!
There are days when I feel like I am in this sweet little spot that God created just for me, doing what He has gifted me to do. Days when I feel like I am home.
And then there are days when I am quite convinced God must have confused me with someone else. When I feel like I am far out of my league, way out of my comfort zone and somewhere I have no business being.
There are days I just can't wait to see what He is going to do next.
And there are days I just want to go back. Back to the life I had before he put this dream in my heart.
A few days ago I drove by a Special Education Early Childhood Center, one very similar to the one I used to work at (it feels like that must have been a lifetime ago). And for the first time since I started this journey I had this crazy, insane, desire to go back. All I could think about was how easy it would be to go back to something that was familiar, something I knew I could do, something that had no learning curve, no sense of failure. Something I knew I could do, and honestly - something I could do on my own. Something that I wouldn't have to rely on Him for every minute of every day, in every word I read and every word I write. Something I could just do.
It's hard sometimes, doing what God has asked you to do. Trusting in Him to carry you through because you know He is asking you to do something you simply can't do on your own. (Do you think He does that on purpose?). Too often, at least in my experience, the status quo is so much easier than what ever it is He is asking us to do. And it is so very, very tempting to stay there content with the status quo. It is safer…easier…more familiar.
But it's not where we called to be. God didn't leave the Israelites in Egypt. He promised them more, a better life. And even though it was a long hard walk through that desert, God delivered them. He led the Israelites to the land He had always planned for them, right where He had always wanted them to be.
God will do that for you too if you let him. He will take you by the hand and lead you right where He wants you, into the sweet spot He designed just for you. I'm not promising you it will be easy. There will be days you want to give up, days you want to go back. There were days the Israelites LONGED to go back to slavery, they BEGGED to go back. There are days I do too. But it's not every day. And deep in my heart I know I would never be content there again, knowing that God had more planned for me.
So I will keep going. And I hope you do to. Keep listening, keep letting Him lead you. Because there will be days when you just can't believe the life He has planned for you!